It feels odd to be in such a state of peace as we move closer to changes and transitions....excited even.
There is a quietness that is settled over me. As programs are rolled out for the fall church season and friends start asking what we will participate in.....I quietly and confidently say "I don't know". Because, I don't. I don't know what fall will bring, I don't know what middle school will look like for Dude. Will he need the down time, more time for homework or will he want to do after school programs? I don't know.....neither do I feel a strong pull toward anything. I simply feel this calm and an ease to go with the flow. That during this season in life I am not to make commitments.
Its a funny feeling to finally feel this settled in my spirit...makes me want to laugh.....perhaps that's the joy bubbling up. I love the season we are in!
I'm excited for our daughter that she is going to be a junior! That she is really coming into her own and has found she loves drama and is actually excited about tryouts. That she's excited about prom already and that she seems to have a new confidence and ease about her.
I'm excited for what middle school will be like for our son. Granted there are many prayers for him that it is NOTHING like my own experience. I love that he is so excited for the opportunities....all the clubs and extras that he wants to participate in (though I have a feeling we will have a conversation about how he can't do them all). I love that he is so relaxed, so at ease and confident at his age. It blows my mind. No nervousness at all....he never has. First day of school? Mom, get a grip, it's no big deal, I can walk myself in. Every year, not once, not even pre-school or kindergarten, would he let me walk him into class. He wanted to do it on his own. The first few years I think it was me who needed my hand held but now, he's taught me over the years that his first day experience is so much different than my own. Mine were full of nerves and questions and what-ifs...but his, relaxed and go with the flow.
As parents, its a new season for us. Our kids are so self sufficient now that I sometimes need to remind myself. We don't need babysitters anymore. That is so weird! The need for us to do things for them has changed and now what they need from us is guidance and teaching to do things on their own, building up their skill set. Its a great mental shift for mom.
I've been working on transitioning our home to better suit older kids and make the basement area function better for them to have friends over. It used to be the grown up hang out and now it's all about the kids. Gotta make it cool!
The household diet is changing so the menus will be changing, the day of the week I shop on has changed and what I buy has changed.
So many areas of transition.
Such great peace.
Blessings of anticipation for what the Lord has in store for you and protection from the desire to do anything but go with it.