Whats the dealio.....

For years I've had people tell me to "write a book".   About what, I have no idea.....my life?  I can't imagine that being a good read or even how to put it onto paper....er....screen?

Anyway.....about 10 years ago I realized that if I didn't set out to learn what a godly wife looked like, my marriage wouldn't survive.  I had not had this modeled for me and I had no idea what it looked like.  I knew I needed to be intentional in seeking out everything I could.  I needed to watch other women, read as much as I could get my hands on and dive....deep.....into scripture.   What role did God design for woman to fill ~ originally.   What was His hearts desire for us?    What did that mean for me and how on earth was I going to change?

Yeah.....I had lots of questions and not a clue as to the answers.   

I believe that my mother wanted me to be a powerful career woman.   I was raised with impeccable manners and class.   I was dressed in beautiful clothes, jackets with matching muffs and hats, gold jewelry at an early age and did not speak unless spoken to.   Today you would never know.   ...yeah there are traces of all that good breeding and champagne taste beneath the jeans and t-shirt girl.   Funny now to think that I knew which fork to use but had no idea how to do laundry or even cook rice.

What must have gone through Mr's head when he had to teach me how to do laundry.....hot and useless, that was me.   Could have been a sitcom considering I actually did turn the first load of whites pink from one random red item.   I'd never had a "ramen noodle" in my life and had no idea how to make rice....not sure I knew what hotdish was either....  

We were the perfect scenario for failure.   We moved in together after 5 months {sinners - gasp, I know}, we were only 20 - both college drop outs, he had a child and I was spoiled and overly sheltered....we got engaged 2 months later and married 1.5 years after that.   Seems incredibly ridiculous when I look back....our wedding was so big and expensive......we didn't pay a cent.   All taken care of by parents....mostly mine.   And Mr and I were so poor we couldn't even afford the postage to send out our thank you notes.   Still embarrassed about that....    It was a beautiful wedding and an amazing day.    MAN did he look good. :)

anyhooo.....it wasn't all flowers and fun.  We were broke, with a kid.  We had no idea HOW to be married.  I made so many mistakes.   I was selfish and wanted to be served....entitlement was all I knew.

12 years later I love what I do and have such a passion for serving my family.  What I have learned about being a wife and running a home has changed my life and brought me more contentment and joy than I ever could have imagined.

The Lord is so good.....He has blessed me beyond what I deserve.   I hope to use this blog as a way to share what He has taught me and provide myself with some accountability to put into practice what I have learned while I continue to pursue His will for my life.

Thank you for visiting.....I hope you enjoy the journey.